It’s usually a good idea to have an idea of what in the world you’re doing with your life. Right? right.
True confession: I have no idea what to do with my life. So I take it a day at a time.
Here is a picture of me from today. I’m listening to my jams on my cans and staring into your soul.
At the beginning of the summer I started looking for a job. Unfortunately, no employer in their right mind would ever want to hire a competent, intelligent, hard working, poor-and-desperate-for-a-job college student who can only work for two months out of the year.
It follows that I have a lot of free time on my hands and very empty pockets.
So here is a list of some of the goals I set for myself to fill that time.
- Get organized.
check. I have a lot of shit. I threw most of it away and I’m selling some of it. The rest is essential. Sort of. Except for a blue tissue box which is full of cards and letters, a drawer full of shirts that I might wear some day, and that huge cardboard box that I labeled: “Sentimental Storage.”
- Find a job
fail. Fortunately there are other ways of earning money, such as babysitting, yard sales, and raiding my little brother’s state quarter collection (I made $10. wow).
- Keep in contact with my friends
Hopeful: My best friend from home is not home this summer, as she is getting married soon. (!!!) My other best friend from home is a guy, so I’ve hung out with his group of friends a few times this summer. But guy friends are sooooo different from girl friends and I’m lacking in the later. So I’m lonely.
Thus, staying in contact with my friends from college is very necessary. I’ve been facebooking people, and I just got off the phone with my best friend from college and it was so nice to talk with her because I miss her a lot and she’s incredibly encouraging. I also talk to my boyfriend every day (thank God for technology) and he’s coming to visit this weekend! (!!!) So it’s certainly not as bad as it could be, but then again it could always be better. I guess deep down that is true of every single situation and happenstance that ever occurred in this world. I’m a realist. Sometimes.
- Start a blog
Done! Here is your proof. Revised goal: Finish a blog.
- Go for a daily walk
Sort of…More like a weekly walk. I live on a 52 acre property of woods and fields and streams and yet I choose to stay in my bedroom and write a blog post. What is my life?
- Get up at 8:30am
I am a miserable failure and I deserve to crawl in a hole and die. The earliest I’ve awoken in the past week is 9:30, and the earliest I’ve rolled out of bed in the past week is 10:07. I have good intentions, isn’t that close enough?
- Get a hair cut
Complete. My hair is happy now! Next summer maybe I’ll chop it all off and get a pixie cut. Thoughts?
- Read Harry Potter
I have a confession to make: This summer I read Harry Potter for the first time ever. It. Was. So. Freakin. Good. This series is like my long lost might-have-been childhood best friend. Or something along those lines.
- Grow spiritually
With all this free time I have you’d think that I would be able to spend a little of it with God, right? Wrong. I keep putting it off and making excuses and conveniently “forgetting” to open my Bible. Last week I managed to spend like fifteen minutes with God for four days in a row! This is a huge accomplishment considering how
not even remotely busy I’ve been.
It’s not like I’m required to read my Bible and pray every day or else get zapped by lightning, or that it will somehow make God love me more. Because it won’t. He already loves me like crazy and there’s nothing I can do or fail to do that will make him love me more or less. I want to learn how to love him back. I need him desperately and I want to learn how to rely on him and trust him. That is why I want to spend time with him. That is why I don’t know why I don’t make more of an effort when he’s already done practically all of the work for this relationship. All I have to do is open my heart and a book.
Wow that was deep. Anyways, so my goal is for two weeks: to spend 15 minutes every night at 10:30pm reading God’s word and praying. Hopefully after that it’ll just be a habit. Hold me to it.
- Prepare for Chile
Yeah guys. I’m going to Chile next semester. Wut. I still need to come up with over a thousand dollars to pay my parents back…but whatevs. I’ll deal with that tomorrow. (fun fact of the day: I am the Procrastination Queen.)
I’ll keep y’all updated on how these go!
What are your summer goals?